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The following rants are from the past two years. Newer ones will be added when I find something to get pissed about. Perhaps you? Nah, but anyways, here goes.
Nonsense: Also Known as the System
October 5, 2007 - Friday
I was reading yesterday and found out such an interesting fact. Getting disability and a medical card when you have epilepsy is very hard.
I know there are people out there that have epilepsy and can work and even drive. They are probably pumped full of anti-convulsants, and here is the kicker, the drugs are probably working for them. My medication, even though I take a significant amount of it, doesn't fully suppress my seizure activity. It helps (because without my medicine I would have an average of 8 grand mal seizures daily, and that isn't including the absentee and drop attacks I have.)
I've been having seizures almost every day, for a nearly a year! It is so stupid. I try to get medical help so I can be fully treated, but in order to do that I need insurance (which I can't afford and insurance policies are messed up in Kentucky - one much have insurance for 12 months before they can cover an existing condition.) That would mean paying 200 to 300 dollars monthly and waiting for 12 months before I could see my neurologist and have it covered. CRAP I SAY!
Or instead of insurance I would need to have a medical card, which I need to be approved for my SSI to have. Now this is even more confusing than the insurance. Social Security says I am being treated for my seizures and they shouldn't hinder me from working. However, I am still having seizures. I can't drive, I can't concentrate and my memory is that of a monkey's. So am I being treated? Apparently not. But tell the system that.
I just need a medical card to get the proper tests I need, and to move on with my life. But it is such a horrible merry-go-round of stupidity on the system's part, that they believe my problems are already being taken care of.
I know they have to be strict in their consideration for approval - but there is such a thing as just overlooking the obvious and denying those that truly need it. Now, if I had a debilitating mental disorder, then I would be approved already.
Excuse my rant. I just feel helpless here. This epilepsy business is getting the better of me. I want to work again, I want to just take off for a drive down the road and it be me behind the wheel. This isn't fair at 25.
All and all though, I keep clinging fast to all the positive. Feel like I'm losing my grip though. I wish God would help me.
Choking on Red Tap
November 19, 2007 - Monday
There is only so much a person can take, before they feel like they are going to break in two. I have dealt with these silly rules inside of Bureaucracies for over a year now and I am getting no where. Again today, I went to the court house, to file some paper work that was needed, and they said this:
Oh, you didn't sign this on the right date. You need to go and do it again. Even though, it was signed and notarized and everything else that was necessary, but the date was wrong. Ridiculous.
I know there are needs for rules and order within a government, but when there are so many rules, they begin to choke the little people. Me.
I'm sure many of you have dealt with governmental offices, and it just seems like the rules run you around in circles. Sign this, but don't sign that yet, you filled this out wrong. Oh wait, you forgot the period on that sentence, let's throw everything out.
Blah. Anyways, I'm going to go watch Beowulf. I bet that will cheer me up.
Update: Beowulf didn't cheer me up, that movie sucked!
Silliness and Crumnuckets
December 28, 2007 - Friday
I find it so stupid when people can't just be upfront and say what they mean to the people around them. They hide behind masks and deceptions in order to be either brave or feel contented in their behavior. Most people are more willing to beat someone down continuously with their pre-conceived notions of them than to actually stop and assess the situation.
They believe what they want to believe and shut up if you say different. Then when you try to defend yourself to them, they skew that and say you are being self righteous or pompous. How silly! So we should all just bow down to your ideas and leave it at that. Forget that.
Anyways, this blog was just an early morning rant. It isn't about any of you out there. Just feel very irritated at the moment. Sometimes human nature is retarded.
American Idol and How People Love to Complain
April 12, 2008 - Saturday
So this week on American Idol, they had a program called Idol Gives Back where they raise money for children in the US and Africa that are starving, sick, needy and a number of other tragedies that come with being disadvantaged. It was a strange show, mixed with spiritual messages and then moving right along to crude humor. It was almost as if they were trying to appeal to all audiences but did it in such a random way, that it was awkward.
The show was closed with the contestants singing "Shout to the Lord" an evangelical Christian worship song. During the song, they left out "My Jesus", and replaced it with "My Shepard."
This has caused a lot of controversy on every side of the spectrum. People of other faiths and no faiths are upset that they sung a Christian song at the end of the show. (But apparently the Salvation Army, which is a huge charity uses this song for their campaigns, perhaps there is a connection?)Then there are Christians that are up in arms about the fact that they left out "Jesus."
The first group of people, I can understand more readily than the upset Christians. America is a country of people of many faiths and to start singing Christians songs on a show that is called "American Idol" and is supposed to be for everyone in the country, starts to alienate people. What if they sang the Muslim call to prayer or a Buddhist mantra? Would everyone that is so gung-ho about it turning toward a spiritual show be happy then? Probably not. It is always okay when it is something you believe in.
The second group that is angry about the show leaving out "Jesus" are supposed to be professed followers of Christ. Everything I have ever read in the Bible gives me no indication that Christ would ever spend his time complaining over something so trivial as that. The only times that Jesus ever got angered were when others were spreading evil and misrepresenting God. Does the fact that the lyrics were changed misrepresent God? Ahhh....I doubt it.
I just find this whole controversy so silly. People will look for things to complain about and be unhappy about. We should be spending our lives trying to better our existance and helping those around us. Idol Gives Back was about helping those in need. People tend to forget the amount of money raised (around $60 million dollars last I checked.) This money will go towards helping many, many people that really need it.
We shouldn't spend our time complaining over a song, regardless of what one believes. We should rather spend some time contemplating how beneficial this money is and how it will help the children in Africa whose family has died of AIDS and how the money will help improve their future and give them a chance at life. (And that is just one example of the good it will bring.)
It is sad to me that people are so self-centered as to complain about song lyrics and fail to realize the good that will come from the money that was raised. How very sad indeed.
Note: Jesus, you rock, some of your followers though, well, I won't say anything...
Now, I sound so angry. I'm really not. I actually very peaceful. lol =)
